CHRISTIANITY INCLUDES GAY PRIDE

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The Times-Union (Albany, NY)

June 16, 2012 Saturday  Final Edition EDITION

CHRISTIANITY INCLUDES GAY PRIDE

BYLINE: SHARI JOHNSON

SECTION: RELIGION; Pg. A13

LENGTH: 510 words

The night my 37-year-old daughter Cholene called and told me she is gay, I felt as though the air had been sucked out of the room. I was beyond devastated. I had been an evangelical Christian for more than 30 years and thought that this was the worst thing that could happen — to a parent, to a Christian, to me.

Cholene had given us many reasons to be proud of her. She was a graduate of the U.S. Air Force Academy, the second woman to fly the U-2 spy plane and then a captain for a commercial airline. In my experience, “gay pride” was not on the acceptable list of parental bragging rights.

I begged God to change her. Instead, God changed me.

I had always known that I had a problem with unconditional love, but I thought if I followed all the “rules” and “worked” for God and his kingdom, I would get a pass on the love thing. I didn’t.

In 2004, Cholene emailed me to say that she and her partner were getting married. I didn’t take it well at all. One morning as I was driving to work, I actually asked God, “What event could a parent be asked to attend that would be worse than this?” His answer was short. A funeral. That got my attention.

By the time we arrived in Massachusetts for the wedding, God was already there. I have never felt his presence and love as I did that weekend — perhaps because it was so unexpected. It was then that my heart began to change. I told Cholene that her wedding rocked my world, and my world needed to be rocked.

I have learned since then that Cholene knew she was gay since she was a little girl. She got the message from pastors, Sunday school teachers, Christian leaders and even her parents that she didn’t deserve God’s love. I have agonized over this. People have said, “But you didn’t know she was gay.” What difference does that make? Our behavior was unconscionable, not only as parents, but also as Christians.

Thankfully, she received the message from God himself that he loved her.

I have had a dramatic change of heart since learning of Cholene’s homosexuality. Call it a paradigm shift, an epiphany or just plain coming to my senses. Whatever it was, I know this: God was behind it. I would give anything to have a do-over for those years when we hurt Cholene so terribly, so I’m on a mission to help keep other families from making our mistakes. Our story did not end in tragedy as so many do. But it could have.

I can’t forget where I was before. My thinking is so different now that I find myself being upset with those who aren’t “there” yet. Now, the lessons I have learned about unconditional love for the gay community need to be applied to those who are exactly where I was for so many years.

Love can’t be legislated, politicized, forced or faked. It comes from God. I have said many times that change will come one heart at a time, and only God can change a heart if we will just get out of God’s way.

Johnson is president of the Odessa, Texas, chapter of Parents, Families and Friends of Lesbians and Gays. She is author of the memoir “Above All Things” and wrote this column for the Religion News Service.

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